Hi Hoosier, well it lasted about 3 years,the last 6months or so I knew it was "dying". I knew he did too but wouldn't come right out and say so,so I ended it. I had known in my heart it was a game,I always said so and he protested but he knew. It was a last ditch attempt at recapturing our youth,for him I think he needed to know how life would have been if we had married,he once told me his wife brought up my name everytime they fell out,he married on the rebound from me! I had hardly ever thought of him we exchanged C,mas cards as couples over the years but that was it. It was a magical time for me and I have no regrets. I think of him now and again,and will always be grateful that he unlocked my heart and took time to break down my walls. I know now I am still desirable as a woman and have been loved deeply.He brought me back to life and that is a gift I will have for as long as I breathe. We have to be vunerable,how else can we know when love touches us. I will never be as hurt as I was with my x nothing and no one has that power over me,I truly know that and I know I will always love my x but my heart can be awakened to new loves. The heart is big, it does not have a limited amount of love,it grows to make room for new loves. Make your heart grow and even if this love is only temperary, it will be for a reason and help with the healing. God Bless.
