You are hurt and vulnerable. You should not be dating yet. You need time to heal. I don't judge you for having sex with other men. i don't care about that. I care that you are doing it to please them, not yourself. Think about the act of deciding to buy the comforter and then going out and getting what you wanted. That was pleasing yourself. that is what you need to focus on. You have been a people pleaser for too long. Old habits can be hard to break. That's hard....not impossible! You can do it. You want to do it.
Tell yourself, "I will not snatch defeat out of the jaws of victory." And then do it. Make yourself proud of you!
And call the police and report whoever roughed you up. that is a serious crime. It will be handled seriously. You have the right to say no. At any point!
