I'll be checking you out on the other side as well. 21st of January. I read smart cookies thread tonight. This is the pain we put our spouses through. Like you, I am to blame for my situation. I will read that post over and over when I start to act like the victim and start blaming her for this. It will take alot of time for her pain to heal and I want to be there as much as I am able to do what I can.
I will have contact with my wife for a long time because of the kids. I tell myself and my God that I will continue to grow and change and continue to love and support her so she can soar. I will be the kind of man I want my daughters to marry someday.
Take care and may God direct your steps and mine from here on out.
