loving distance

[courageous wife]

Well, I have been silently watching posts from others on here, especially rockedworld's and gaining hope from her sitch. I was even going to ask her advice on the boundaries she set and how she approached her H as I had planned to have that same talk with my H after the holidays. Unfortunatley, the other night, some friends were over and we had a few drinks. H went to bed and left his phone out in the open. I couldn't help looking at the history on it to see if he had talked with OW over the Christmas holiday and yes, he had. I had been dreading Christmas especially since the weather prevented our company from coming, but H was really good, almost "normal" and we had a nice day afterall. So, after I saw that he had called her, I kinda went crazy and called her number and did a couple of hang ups! I don't know WHY I did that..it was like someone possessed me because he was obviously going to find out! How stupid of me! Went to work the next day and when I got home, H asked me if I had used his phone and I said yes, and he walked out. I think he has been waiting for an excuse to leave and boy did I give him one! I am going dark...have not tried to call him at all. Help!