I let a bunch of folks down with my actions, I want to repair what I've damaged.
No, you haven't. You don't owe anyone here a thing.
Just learn from it. Easy to understand how it happened. Just accept that it did, and don't get down on yourself.
Get your guard back up. If she convinces you she's ready to work on the M, and you want to, then remain open to that. Regardless, keep looking out for you.
If she calls you/txts, I would be polite, but keep it brief. You got sh!t to do. She needs to chase you.
