Mixed Signals or is this Limbo Land

[MHL]

Another update. Spoke to W on the phone for 30 minutes yesterday at lunch time while she was at work. Normally she does not want to talk b/c she is at work and is too busy so she says. We were talking about me bringing her something later that day at work. We were having fun playing 20 questions, she was trying to figure out what it was that I was bringing. I think she knew but was purposely prolonging the conversation. Every year I give my W a gift of jewelry at midnite on New Year's Eve, it is by far the most romantic thing I do and I am the only man I know that does this. It puts her on top of the world especially in a crowd. I have done this every year since we met. She is going out of town to be w/ old soroity sisters for New Year's (first time we've been apart ever on New Year's). Yesterday I gave her the gift to open at midnite on New Year's Eve, also a card in a gift bag. When I showed up at her office she was pleasantly surprised, we talked for 10-15 minutes. I told her some traditions die hard, she smiled. There was a moment when I thought the conversation was over and she continued to stand there as if she was waiting for me to hug or kiss her. I talked a little more and said "well okay" intending to leave and again she stood there so I moved in for the hug and was well received. Third hug in a week, these are my positive baby steps.

I try not to focus on this but the town she is going to is where the first OM lives. The thought has crossed my mind that she is going to be there with him but I don't know that and that is the thinking that derails me. I sent one text today and did not get anything back for 3.5 hours, the demons started coming back but again nothing to support meeting OM and even if so, the positives of the last 2 weeks would far outweigh that event. She did text back that she made it okay and would open the gift at midnite. Waiting to see if she will call at midnite tonight but not expecting anything.
My W is supposed to come over early Saturday morning as I have to work this Saturday (a rarity). There is no need to come over b/c D13 can watch out for S9. We all ME, W, D13 & S9 are going to go bowling later on Saturday afternoon. I suggested that she come over to the house while I was at work to spend quality time with the kids in their own home. D13 is still angry with Mom, I thought it might help melt the ice between them. I am trying to make the road back as smooth as possible for my W. Still hard to do these things for her b/c she still does not have an ounce of remorse or sorrow for what she has done not even to our D13. It does get easier b/c I am seeing results.