For those with a WAS...How do you cope?

[courts0818]

Thanks, Gardener.

I don't have much new to report. The last couple of weeks were really busy with the holidays and things.

H ended up coming over for his bday last night and we actually talked. Wow...I can't believe some of the stuff that's going on at his work. His boss has been texting him and telling him he's so lucky - things like this...'I wish I was 34 like you and not 46. You are young and good looking. I know at least 3 women that want you.' Yeah...can you believe that??? His boss claims to be my friend and clamis to be supportive.

As if my H needs to be told other women want him. His work has become nothing but a dramamatic mess and he's under all kinds of pressure to run the place. I think he's so stressed and unhappy there that he can't see happiness anywhere else - especially at home with me. It's like our home is just another place that wants to suck more out of him.

And then last night I found out that one of my really good friends is pregnant. I had an emotional meltdown. I'm so happy for her. But we were pregnant together with our daughters. We did everything together - exercised, looked at baby products, attended each other's showers...everything. And now our girls play together and they do a lot of things together. I felt like I had been run over by a truck - it's so hard when everything you want is so out of reach. It's so hard when your S makes the choice to not love you back.

Sigh...staying strong and positive, but feel like I'm running out of gas.