Hi sh- I am so glad to see that you and your H are rebuilding a friendship. Speaking from experience, it is extremely difficult not to get your hopes up that things are progressing toward more. You already know you can't allow yourself to go there. My H is supposedly moving back in with me in the next week or so and I still have to keep my emotional distance. I still have to live as if he could walk away at any moment and be okay with it.
I think what you said here is interesting...
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Slightly disappointed that I'm unable to allow myself to feel any joy and anticipation for what would otherwise be very exciting times.
Hopefully you are still able to feel joy and anticipation with all of the other things in your life. I find myself feeling disconnected to so many things now but it could just be where I am at in my life with my H, teenage kids and parents with health issues. It is fine line to walk having no expectations while trying to enjoy life. I hope you are better at it than me.
