HSO2, Happy new year's eve - I'll be around and alone tonight if you want any company for awhile. I will be kissing my teddy bear.
It seems like you need something to do besides reading FB pages as a start to a new year.
My H tried calling two days ago but left no messages. Today he emailed saying -New Progress - want to talk? Didn't know what to say. How is that showing me that anything has changed when I asked for no contact for a few months. Then I think, it hasn't been that long and the last words to me a week before c. are still ringin in my ears and heart. I know that he is capable of saying the worst things but I told him I had had enough of his ill behavior.
I guess my new year's gift is to treat myself better and not listen to anyone thinking differently of me. I don't know if you recall my mention of bestfriend for 20+years dumping me b/c of my H - well she called a month ago to have things go back to the usual - then I realized she did to me what my H does -walks away when she is uncomfortable - so as I think about the people in my life and how I have allowed them to treat me - I think I need to do this across the board. D-19 was like that too but since she has been away and sees that I am not taking H's c**p she has a lot more respect for me.
