Hope and heartache

[ClingingToHope]

We are on similar paths except that you are at home and I am not. You still haven't laid out your plan. I'm guessing it means filing for D.

A lot of things in life have to do with timing.

I haven't had enough money to pay for the retainer. I will soon and that puts a bit of timeline in my head. Then the choice becomes real.

I am still hoping that some small baby steps -- Christmas and the conversation last night -- will come to fruition. But realistically they most likely won't.

There have been lots of times I've felt better this year because I wasn't living with W, walking around on eggshells, praying she had a "good" day. In 2010, I hope that the amount of time she's on my mind dwindles month-by-month.

I really wonder where I'll be at this time next year.