so you're working 2 jobs and killing yourself to enable your wife's current situation and you don't have your kids more than 40% of the time.
I'm glad this is the end of 2009, you need to stand up for yourself, what is with this nice guy crap, it's manipulative and controlling, you're nice to her and you hope that her viewing how much you're doing for her that she'll just fall in love with you all over again and want you back.
Here's a hint...... THAT NEVER WORKS!
EVER!
EVER!
2010 new year for you.
January pursue joint custody of your children, drop the 2nd job, spend that time with your kids and on yourself, stop enabling your wife who makes more money than you.
Why don't you feel like you have the same rights as your wife?
You are a human being too, ever hear of dignity and self-respect?
Without those things your wife would never ever be attracted to you.
If you don't change what you're doing and you don't act differently, I have to assume you have no guts to do this and you're just waiting to let this marriage die eventually from it's slow death - awesome, keep up what you're doing, you'll get there eventually.