My UFO (unbelievably fabulous observations)

[hoosiermama]

I'd love to hear more, naej. how long it lasted, what happened to end it, etc.

He wasn't an old bf, actually, but a very good friend; we talked about everything. As it turns out, he always wanted it to be more--and I knew it--but at the time I was involved with someone else and apparently intent upon self-immolation. I wasn't used to being cared for, and obviously this guy did--and that scared me. This time when we reconnected, the ability to talk openly and safely was clearly there, but my walls were not. Unfortunately, he built some of his own from the debris of a 24-year marriage. Yes, it feels good to feel deeply again--but why I was so willing to be vulnerable again is a mystery to me--it's not like me. Except that I always felt safe with him.

Best wishes for a wonderful 2010 to you, too!