Hope and heartache

[mishka422]

I'm happy with how I feel.

Right there is all that matters. Nothing else.

Everyone here can say whatever, suggest whatever, but in the end the only important detail is that you feel good about the direction you are taking.

Sorry this is so long. I feel I've come a long way and reading your response it seems like you believe I'm still at square one.

I don't believe anyone thinks you are at square one. I think everyone is seeing that you are stuck and can't come to a definitive conclusion on how to move forward or what you want to do at this stage. I know that I, for one, and ticked for you every time I hear about your w's cake eating behavior. Any time she is being inconvenienced by the girls she comes crying to you. You have gotten better about it but she knows that you are available to bail her out often when she is in a bind and will use your love for your children as a weapon. Keep that in mind.

I don't foresee any issue with you filing for joint physical custody of the girls just because you aren't in the house. What separated couple going through D stays in the same house? Not many - creates a War of the Roses atmosphere!! No one wants that. You spend a lot of time with your girls as it is, no judge is going to remove that from you and will most likely increase your time to equal 50/50.