I really wanted to keep my house, but I think that now I could take it or leave it. The memories will stay with you my friend, but getting out of the place where they were made might be good for you.
Do you think that you will just move to a different house, or make a bigger move? I am thinking that I want to move to a city that is about 4 hours away from where I am now and go to school and hopefully find a full time job.
Well, I would like to keep the kids in there current school because this is where all there friends are. My parents want me to build a house on some family property near them however this would put me back in my home town and W's hometown as well! I'm really thinking about moving out of state though. I guess alot of it depends on what I can sell this house for after I finish up a few things.
I'm a bit upset at how much I slid back since W contacted me so much.
W texted me tonight.. I she asked how the kids were and if she could talk to them.. I told her they were great and they were at my parents for the night (no school so I have my parents watching them and they just happen to be spending the night)
so she wants them to call her tomarrow night.
Im very surprised she even bothered this is the first time she has done this well since this summer when she would use them to get me on the phone.
I figured she would call my parents house as she has done befor but whatever the kids can call her tomarrow night and maybe just maybe she will give a real care for them again (like she used to)
I'm a bit upset at how much I slid back since W contacted me so much.
Slid back in what way?
missing her so much again and the dreaded thoughts of if we worked things out!
To me that's not backsliding. We all get that.
It's only backsliding, IMO, when you a) act on those thoughts or b) she knows what you are thinking.
You are going to get those thoughts every day, every week and then maybe just every month. The trick it recognise them and not act on them. You did that.
Me 36, W 34 | D 8 | M 3.5y Sep 2Aug09 | Left 6Sep09 | OM in 10Oct09 | NC 17Nov09 | Gave up caring - Jan 2010
"Have integrity. Do what is right, not what is expedient." "Delay is the antidote for anger"
well, I think given she texted then ya I will give her the call from the kids.. of course she didnt answer and kids are waiting for a return call
I would suggest in future she calls the kids. That way they won't get disappointed when they call and she isn't there.
I have a feeling she won't call back.
Remember you don't need to pander to her. They are her kids. She can do her own legwork to speak to them which will prove to them and you that she is trying.
Me 36, W 34 | D 8 | M 3.5y Sep 2Aug09 | Left 6Sep09 | OM in 10Oct09 | NC 17Nov09 | Gave up caring - Jan 2010
"Have integrity. Do what is right, not what is expedient." "Delay is the antidote for anger"
well she did end up calling!! WOW there is a new one for her.
I hit talk and i gave the phone to D8(dont want them to see the name mommy comes up as on my phone.) they talked for a little bit, then D7 talked to her for a short bit as well and then W asked if S3 wanted to talk but D8 told her he was sleeping so W asked if daddy wanted to talk. I said not right now as I was looking for a card in my room. (I guess D8 told W no daddy doesnt want to talk to you) so IDK if that was good or not but I'm guessing she prob takes it as Im still trying NC who knows though like everyone on here says I would just be guessing at this point
My parents took the kids for the night so I could go out on new years eve. I really didn't know what to do so I went to a friends house and my phone died! im usually very good at keeping it charged. we watched hangover. LMAO it was good! anyway the next day I had to barrow my friends phone so i could call my parents.. I had a very slow day... well after I finally got home I saw W called and texted me. I called her back and told her my phone died. she was very quiet. I had my upbeat attitude when I told her it was "dead dead" she said she just wanted to know when I was dropping the kids off so she could be back home..(i think this was her trying to tell me she was with OM) I told her well I planned on 7 as I didnt skip a beat she said oh ok, and i did my usual offer of letting her have the kids sooner if she wanted but she declined that. she stopped talking (I think she is still taken off guard that I show no interest in what she is doing) so I said ok well I will let you go then and hungup
I think Ive been doing great at not showing any sighn of the sadness I feel for loosing the love of my life to not only another guy but such a looser.. its more than a slap in the face when you see how bad this guy looks
anyway I cant help but wonder when or even if she will she see what she did!
I still have a hard time beliving life is good living with parents, no car, no job...
im usually very good at keeping it charged.