Pls help--confused and fearful

[Day by Day]

You know, honestly, I'd rather have him served the D papers now than having him serve me. It'll hurt me a lot to have more rejection from him. He'll respond with D papers to the order for financial support according to my L. I'm going to think it over. I've been told a couple times here that he should do all the legwork. My L said she sees it as a psychological tactic on my part with him. She thought it wasn't a good idea and a waste of time.

Thoughts?