well I think you have read my thread and thats what mostlikley would be happening if you still made contact.
I went back over your thread WL. I'm sorry for the problems you're having just now. Would ignoring her not have worked though?
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NC is very very nice for self healing but I feel that with her contacting me again it just put me back to the early parts of my stich... missing her and thinking about her every 10 min or so it will get better as time goes on.
NC is good for self healing and it is working a lot better than I thought for that. However I just keep feeling it has killed any possible R for my M. I have to weigh that up though and decide whether it was better to have a chance at R or a better me. However much it pains me to say it, it is better to have a better me.
I would liked to have found out how carrying on with contact would have panned out though.
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I think you are doing the right thing though. and its most likely a long long road. however it turns out... You tried and thats more than what most people can say
It's a very VERY long road and one that I don't know if I want to keep walking down or not. I feel a total fool wasting my time on the thoughts and love for a woman who has erased me and D from her life. She is moving on with her life and I don't feel I'm moving on properly with mine. I'm trying but it's hard to GAL with confidence when you know the one person you trusted completely in your life betrayed you.
That's stuff we ALL deal with though. Not just me.
Me 36, W 34 | D 8 | M 3.5y Sep 2Aug09 | Left 6Sep09 | OM in 10Oct09 | NC 17Nov09 | Gave up caring - Jan 2010
"Have integrity. Do what is right, not what is expedient." "Delay is the antidote for anger"
it will get better as time goes on.
