All signs point to game over!

[Cie la vie]

Yeah she used joint funds but all those procedures were done and paid for prior to her filing for the D. And to be perfectly honest about it I was supportive and agreeable to it. My attitude was if it makes her happy then I to will be happy. Little did I know that she was preparing herself for the market. I do believe this may well have been a strategic escape plan to find a another suitable man and bail on the marriage. I don't believe the weight loss and dermo procedures were initially started with and escape plan in place but I believe it morphed into this over the months. I could be wrong and I am better off not speculating. She had been a wonderful wife and mother to my children (and remains so) and that I cannot deny.

I think she is quite confused, although she seems perfectly lucid and apparently convinced she is dong the right thing. She hasn't shown the slightest bit of remorse for the A and to the contrary seems to take some pleasure in rubbing it in my face. She has accomplished this recently by leaving a printed sexually explicit email thread between her the OM out for me to discover. In addition upon her return from a recent trip out to see the OM where he lives she had several new books related to sexual exploration prominently display in her bedroom. She truly has exhibited a cruel side that I never new existed.

I'm not sure where this A will go but I have to admit that part of me (a large part) wants it to blow up in her face sooner rather than later. This may be a bad attitude on my part but I can't denty it.