It takes time to detach completely, even after divorce. It took me approximately 2 years after the divorce to finally say "okay, enough of this bs". What helped me is the fact that I didn't have any more contact w/him after the divorce. Maybe the contact for you has to be completely dark these days.
You haven't been divorced very long and you are still grieving. It takes time....be kind to yourself and don't set your expectations too high for what you think you need to do and can do at this time. One day at a time.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
