My mind is clear for the most part. In the beginning it was awful. I cried, begged, bargained...all of that. Not attractive.
But I have changed and I know that I will be ok no matter what happens. I want to be with my husband, but I do not NEED to be.
The only thing I get confused about is the spending time/being intimate vs. pulling back and letting him get a taste of life without me. Of course, if it weren't for the past I would do the latter...
