Waiting More Than a Dozen Years

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My last update of the decade and probably for awhile (though I may comment elsewhere).

I complete my first calendar decade without any sexual intimacy since the 1950's. Even though it is 12/30, the prospect for a sudden about face is zero. She had surgery yesterday and I'm in charge of taking initial care of her recovery.

(Although the my first time ML was in the early 70's, as a teenager in the late sixties, there was some "sex play." None of that has happened in this first decade of teh 21st century.)

I received an interesting Christmas gift from my wife...a Bose Wave Radio and CD system. So, the fact that I've gone back to recover "my" music, even if I do not play it in her presence (or I'm listening to it in her presence on my MP3 player) has, apparently, been noted.

The day after Christmas, we went to see "Invictus" (those studious amongst you will note that my signature contains the last few lines of the poem). We were going to go see "Up In The Air" on Sunday, but she bailed out of that idea.

Anyway, she's at home, in bed, recovering. I moved back upstairs to the front guest bedroom (had to turn the heat back on in that room) so that I'm close at hand. She can call to me or page me on the phone intercom. This is the first time I've slept on the second floor of my house since 2004.

Currently, I'm sitting in the bed watching ESPN and waiting until it's time for her next dose of pain medication in about an hour.

In the next decade, I resolve my sexless life will come to an end...whether that be because of my death or because this marriage comes to an end matters not. I am well along completing my autobiography that lays out my life experiences, including this long sexless portion of my life, so that it is no longer a silent part of my life.

I see lot's of discussion about 180's. Well, I'm outbound on a slow climbout.

Contacting departure control on 125 point 3. Good night.