here we go again

[Jstar]

yeah i was checking them out. just another roller coast ride, just got in a different line now.

i would consider myself to be a strong person, i've been through a lot, i won't bore with details, but in this i don't think i'm gonna make it to be patient enough to deal with him.

i have all but told him that i'm done, i think i've just become a walk away spouse. i reply back to his msgs, but they are just listen to ur parents, i'm not right for you, i'll let you know who my attorney is, glad u are making money now and like where you are at, me kids are moving on, gone, it's to late.

i know i'm hard on him, impatient, buti look at the time, though very short that i've spent with him, and there's no change in him, he's the same person i was married to. closed off, never talking, answering his phone, can't figure out one day to the next, selfish, chatting with his friends while he's supposed to be hanging with d2, phone calls come in and it's up and off he runs to go cater to whoever was on the phone, it was not work,.

my niece was like i understand i fyou want him in the delievery room, he is the father. i told her, he maybe the father, but it's my choice of who is going to make me feel most comfortable, and even if he and i were somewhat back together, i'm not going to tell you just because of him u cant be there.

i'm still going with the plans i've made when he was not around.