Mixed Signals or is this Limbo Land

[MHL]

Well just a little late night journal update here. Friends never called but I kinda new that b/c of discussions with best friends from last night. It is uncomfortable for our friends to be around "us" b/c of what the sitch is and they know what my W has done and they really don't want to see her yet. I am disappointed b/c I do not have an excuse to see or be with my W. I am missing her but it is not as intense b/c she is not the one choosing not to be w/ me tonight. Right now there is pain but it will pass it always does, searching for the positive in this tonight I came up with a couple of things.

I did not call or text her to tell her that there was no get together, so despite my emotions I did not give into them. I can fully experience my emotions and still do the right thing or at least the thing that works.

Also, when I spoke to my W last this afternoon, she seemed genuinely interested in coming out tonight and there was no apprehension in her voice. We did leave it that if I did not call that meant there was no get together so I don't think she will get mad or upset that I did not call her. I think by not calling her I did a 180. She would expect that I would have called no matter what just to talk to her. I also think I added a little mystery to me. We shall see if she inquires about tonight the next time we talk.