I think it's obvious I accept responsibility for what I have done. I pretty much talked about my faults the entire post.

What makes this tricky, is that I want him to miss me....but at the same time, I have really put him through the ringer and me being there for him right now with the uncertainty of the future hanging there seems to comfort him. He thinks it's a strength that I can do so.

But at the same time, he is divorcing me. frown