Praying for Light at the end of the Tunnel

[kjensen]

TF- The girls aren't in a hurry to spend time with H, mostly I think since they prefer to spend time on their own or with their friends more than their parents. H doesn't show much offense about them not wanting to spend time with him unless its a direct "no" to a suggestion of his, then he feels hurt.

I am communicating with H, but not initiating much at all. He seems to have calmed down a bit since Christmas.

Grace- The zoo was fun, but cold! H emailed me this morning that he appreciated me sending the pictures. He called later to see if one of his vitamin bottles was still here(he stopped taking everything when he stopped his antidepressant mid-November). I'm reading the John Gray book siultaneously with the ow to fix your marriage...) book, along with several others(book club)...depending on my mood. I agree that the How to save your marriage is good-my DB counselor recommended it as well.

I created a well stocked relationship/how to save our marriage/DB..etc. library last January after H moved out, and have been reading and re-reading all of the books!

Books and movies are the way I tend to cope/distract myself and get my head in a better place.

So tonight the girls and I are going to see "Nine". Thursday I'm seeing "It's Complicated" with a girlfriend. In between, lots of cleaning, reading, household puttering!

I'm sad at moments, like when H called today and sounded OK and said he'd come get his bike soon...reminds me that he's moving on and I need to as well..sometimes I just want to shake him and make him wake up and see all the good we had in our relationship, but I know I can't and won't do that...its just frustrating.

Ah well, a distraction is minutes away! Thanks for your support!