I am at the end of my rope. I am tired of being treated with disrespect. I am a good wife and a good mom. I am tired of all of this bs. I want someone that does not hide in the basement, that can be a man and not blame me for all of his problems, that loves me and supports me. I am finally learning to love myself, I have a long way to go but I am getting there. I am STILL threatened by OW but I would never let him OR her know it. She stalks me anyway. Psycho!!!!! But as far as he is concerned..I was thinking today..he has been doing crap like this to me since we were 15...In college he would call me and tell me he loved me and the next day say oh sorry I was drunk. Or say he would show up and never showed up..said he was getting married because this girl he knew was pregnant and he wanted to help her out. I am just tired. I want a normal life. I am tired of the sadness. I am tired of the instability. I am tired of being blamed for EVERYTHING that goes wrong and then trying to fix it while fixing myself. I am tired of him living in the basement and I am tired of him not wearing his ring. I have busted my a** trying to make HUGE changes for him and my family. But it is not good enough for him. I want to be good enough for me! I dont know if he even cares. Part of me thinks he really loves OW and I feel guilty because they should be together. I know he really does not love me at all. End of story. I am just sick of the games from both of them! I want a normal life. 11 years of this has just been overwhelming!
