Pls help--confused and fearful

[Day by Day]

Thanks Sandi for the drop the rope story.

I guess it's fear to drop the rope. Fear of the unknown. I feel confident in myself to survive, but it's fear of pain of seeing him move on with OW, get married to her, sadness of the end of the R. I'm afraid of the pain of divorce. I've just had so much pain and don't want any more.

I do agree I need legal assistance. You are right, he does have serious issues and trusting him again would be incredibly difficult and almost impossible. Yeah, he has serious control issues... why do I still want him. I hate how rotten he's been to me. I deserve so much better. You are right. You're right. I've got to see the writing on the wall... I must drop the rope.