Here's my story..midlife crisis/infidelity

[January girl]

I want to 180 but I'm not sure what exactly to do. In the past I was a very outspoken, team-oriented, gentle, and dependent spouse. I have started being more independent by not asking him for anything except help with the kids when I absolutely have to.
I have started organizing the house the way I want it. I have started spending more quality time with the kids by myself. What is hard is I don't how to interact with him differently. I lost it a few times over the holidays...yelling, name-calling, crying and just acting like a complete a$$. I know I have to
do better about getting control of myself but at the same time I just could not sit still for the bull$hit that he was handing out. He is full MLC.