Mixed Signals or is this Limbo Land

[MHL]

I guess I am doing more journaling here than anything but I still would like to share with anyone out there what seems to be working in my sitch.

More positives this morning. Just got off the phone w/ my W and she has agreed to come over later tonight to see friends again for drinks after they finish dinner. This could be 3 to 4 couples that are our good friends. I am thinking that as long as I make the road back any easier road traveled she may decide to take it. I suggested that our family, ME, W, S9, D13 all go out to eat tonight and then me and my W could go next door to visit with friends. My W kinda shot that down but came up with an alternatetive plan that still involves us being together and going over to friends. This was even better b/c it was her idea and I was able to compliment her on what a good idea it was...."words of affirmation" that is her Love Language.

She also recomended that since we were not going to do a family thing tonite that we all go bowling on Saturday afternoon. I feel this is huge positive b/c again her idea and it a future oriented plan. Up to this point everything has been "we'll see" or "I'll get back to you."

These are all small baby steps but daily I can feel the momentum growing. I am prepared though for a blowback or some silence. The hardest part is after being with her I go into withdraw symptoms of wanting her back immediately and wanting it to happen right away. patience, Patience, PATIENCE. This is soooo hard but I know this working and I don't want to backslide. Hopefully more to come later.