Here's my story..midlife crisis/infidelity

[Awoken]

I survived Christmas but just barely.
It was my most unhappy holiday ever. I'm trying to survive but it's hard.

Yes, the holidays are tough. Good for you for surviving!
Even better for you for thinking of your kids first!

It must be hard knowing that he is in contact with OW daily. I'm sure he is sad, and as hard as it is too hear, you should remember that he is in trauma too. No excuses though!

Soleil said "Don't feed into it". She's right, who knows exactly why he is sad and more importantly, you shouldn't be worried about him. My WAW has ping-ponged back and forth from fury to apparent joy. Don't believe any of it. No mind reading. Focus on yourself. What are you doing to GAL? To 180?

Just the way you described your concern for your kids tells me you can focus on the important things. Taking care of yourself is the best thing you can do for you and your kids now, and for your M. Let your H deal with his own problems.

Hang in there, January!