Moving on with my life!

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Excited today! Going to see my d20 for the day. Its a 3 hour drive so it makes it a long day but worth it. She has been wanting us to come see her for months now.

What is it about exh that makes women fall apart? He is decently looking, nice body, etc. but his personality sucks, hes addicted, broke and a serial cheater! I am including myself in this mix too. I saw an email from this one psycho woman that has been in and out of the picture since before me (03)! He never dated her, just used her when needed...Here are some parts:

"I owe you a huge apology...I haven't been myself lately. I know that and I hate it. I have been stubborn and mean. That is not who I am and I do think you know that. I want to go back and be the person who I really am...happy, caring, giving and loving. I am a good person. I do hope that someday you will think of me that way again. I have been fighting for your attention and love for so long. I think I have FINALLY realized that I'm not going to get what it is that I want from you. That is not your fault. You can't help what you feel in your heart. I'm not mad about this. Yeah, it hurts me, but that is my own problem that I have to deal with. I keep thinking that maybe this time it will be different, but it never is. Honestly, I am not mad and never will be. I have been accused of telling people about you being with me...and that is NOT true. I swear to you Exh, I said nothing (meaning to anyone else about thier hookups). What hurts the most is that it matters to you if people think you might spend time with me. What is it about me that makes you not want anyone to know about me?? I don't believe that it has anything to do with your kids. You do this every time, but yet, other girls come and go in the lives of your kids. Am I really that horrible? And if that is what you feel, that is OK. I can't change your feelings. (I do believe that ***is the gossip) Yes, I am a jealous person. You have seen that side of me for years. But it's all because you never chose me. I wanted to give you happiness and love, but you chose others. Again, it's what you want and you deserve to have what you want. I just need to accept that. It is all MY problem...I know that. Again, I am so sorry for being the way I have been toward you. It will not happen anymore. I promise! I do keep my promises! Be happy and may you find what it is that makes you happy. Everyone deserves that out of life. 2010 will be a better year ..and I will love you forever!!"

Ok, I just had to post that as its amazing! This woman called my home and left horrible messages when exh and I were engaged. She is the one exh cheated on OW with! Obviously there is something wrong with her anyway...I feel sorry for her. Always have. She is nearly 50 years old and has never been married!

I don't want to be one of those loony women that follow him!