It's not all rosy here. Yes he is trying to be transparent but there is something there. I know. I am just being patient to see how it will work out in the end. For example, he wont use the PC at home to check his emails, he knows I have a keylogger installed. That alone is something that bothers me but it will be addressed when the right time comes.
Also, he denied the existence of a girl I know of, that has been sending him innocent emails. Something that was really weird. Anyway, I am cautious and careful and I try to be loving but it's so hard to overcome so many things that are still open between us.
What bothers me most is that he never shares how HE feels. I have no clue. This silence is VERY disturbing. As long as I pretend we are ok, things go smoothly. When I feel anxiety building up, he shuts off completely.
I am learning. I am in the process of learning. A few times I assumed things about him and he corrected me. It feels like we are very very familiar...strangers. K
