Ring On or Ring Off????

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Oh - I will enjoy it! My head is in the right place now. Can't say it won't drift again, but that happens way more infrequently than it did in the beginning. H and I celebrated our first New Years together 29 years ago. When I look at him now, and think about how he treats me now-----he truly is a completely different person. He's a completely different person than he was 5 years ago. I don't like the person he is now. I would never want to be with THIS man. I can't stop hoping that HE will return, but I know that I can't count on that----and I know I deserve better. With all the weird behavior over Christmas his eyes have turned to that REALLY dead look. They vary from almost normal, to dead to now REALLY dead-----does that make sense to anyone??????