Partner left after 9 yrs - 18months on, reunited !

[AliSuddenly]

Hey guys! Kat, thankyou for offering to help, I know where you are if I need you and that was a beautiful story!

Hi Mish, K, Rob...Well I didnt say anything to him about the auspicious stars, but he decided we would start trying anyway! I then went into a bit of a fearful what-have-we-done? meltdown! I told him I felt scared and anxious...how would we cope, do we really want to spend the next 10-15 years caring for someone else, not being able to jet off to Greece for 2 weeks for example, not being able to lie in bed drinking tea (as we just have till 11 am !).. he was very calm and wasnt scared at all. I said, but what if I am pregnant!? He said it would be amazing and that we would be fine and I would be a brilliant mother.

I'm calmer now.. it could take a year to get pregnant or I could be already! We actually havent fully discussed it. After he left and a 2 year gap effectively in our R and my age, it was just decided that the time was now, we had been planning to M and have kids before he left anyway. I would have preferred him to ask me to M him first, but a child is a greater commitment and I am not a conventional person so its ok.

I'll know by mid Jan whether or not I am pregnant (around the time Mercury goes forwards in mid Jan/the solar eclipse (in my house of marriage!) on 15th...

Slightly scared Al x