here we go again

[Jstar]

well he came over for a few hours, took d2 of course with me, has to earn his trust, to buy a xmas gift. it was kind of awkward in the sense of not really knowing what to talk about. did some R talk, talk about birth(he gets very upset about)i had to let him know that i'm not going to change who is going to be in with me,

but if he can demonstrate support maybe they will let 2 people be in with me, my niece is going to be there, i'm not going to say oh sorry you can't because h is now back in the picture.

my d18 is planning on coming down to be with son when he's born as they take him get checked for the 2nd time after his birth.

he got really upset about that, could not understand howi could just push him out. i had to try to get it across that he has some time to change the sitch and the more family there with me, the better. I haven't said that to him yet, but will.

he had to leave quickly for some new job he's doing, he kisses daughter by, says to me he had fun and good time, then d2 is telling him to kiss me. h is like i don't think ur mom wants me to kiss her, d2 is adamant about it, so h kisses me on cheek.

a little bit later he calls, leaves vm, that he doesn't know his schedule for next day but would like to take d2 to park with her new motorized car and do some things around the house that need to get done.

all was okay, but he has inconsistencies in his stories, and it is very difficult to believe what he says.

he does express fear of trying, but does not believe in divorce so i kind of jokingly say, sure but do you believe in marriage.

being dark was so much easier, this is the hard part, one day at a time. we will see how it goes if he remains consistent.