Do start on your list of things you want to do. Right now you may be doing some of those things for him and will probably be disappointed when you don;t get the reaction/response you would like. Let that be your guide to doing things for you. Ultimately we can only take measure of our own lives and we need to do so with our own personal yardstick.
He may or may not go to C and I agree with snodderly that he will probably stop if the C doesn't agree with him.
As hard and impossible as it seems, you can reach your own goals, but only if you set them. Write them down and check them off as you go along. If some are largerm breeak them into workable pieces.
You're made of tougher stuff than you know and there are alot of folks here to offer guidance and remind you that your tough enough for whatever you want to accomplish.
