how to 180 when you've been too independent?

[avermont]

The only consequence I can think of is his being angry (er) at me, because it would be a convoluted path leading directly to mr were any of that side to say anything . My gut tells me to leave it alone. My anger says: make sure everyone at that party knows what a lying, cheating, skunk he really is!

My sadness says that I miss being part of that family and I don't want to be swept under the rug like an old embarrassment.

I also think the A is here to stay; he is making a huge effort to intrduce her to the whole fam.

So, as I said, I am taking hope and trying hard to kill it.

Thanks so much for you response.