Hi when im scared im not saying it like i will act out im scared like a child who is missing his wubby.For lac of a better description im doing everything i humanly can at this point con,classes,father[church],reading and talking here and with friends and working out and working im going to pull this sled till the end.You see i have beat my self up for 8 monthes went from 328 to 212 was a buff dude to where i am today and im alright with that you see i was not in a good place emotional or spirtually but im doing the 180 and i hope she will look up and notice if her oldest will let her but right now shes got mom under her spell but i did find out that little jerk slapped my pregnat daughter and my wife has stopped him from coming around right now .the little dope had better be lucky i can get to him. Antlers, being an ex-marine to when i went to the V.a the consuler said the military need to deprogram me or us guys and he thinks its a shame .But like i said most of my pain here came from the not knowing and like i said i would give up every military award 2 purple hearts every biz award just turn back time You see im not a drinker or a drugy but i like to be aggresive and knowing now what i know and what ive done to my family im scared that i may lose them i go to my motion to show cause for the divorce on the 11 of jan.I do not know what will transpirer after that.
