Andy: It was AWESOME! I really needed to get out of town, and Breitenbush was the perfect place to do it!I feel more committed to my meditation practice and learned more about how to calm the "monkey mind." I also met some people from my town and we've talked about forming a meditation book group to help keep each other on track. To date, we haven't done it, but I think we will. AND...I have now appeared naked in public and on purpose in a mixed gender setting for the purpose of hottubbing. I can't say I was comfortable the whole time, but I did it and am proud of myself.
WCW: I was thinking the same thing! I am committed to enjoying the changes. Maybe I'll live here forever, and maybe I'll sell when the market improves. However it works out, everything I do makes the house cozy and lovely--definitely better feng shui flowing around here! The siding is being stripped off the house today as I type this. Wish they'd told me to take down all breakables first.
So I hired a PI with unimpressive results. She was not as experienced as I thought she was. It does seem that H and ow are living together. He continues to live a double life and doesn't know that I know that he's doing it. Next step for me is to talk to a lawyer. H is laying low right now--usually only communicates through text message these days. That's fine--my goal in texting him daily is to remind him that I'm still here. When I saw him last (about 3 weeks ago), he seemed tired and rundown. He still wants to come here and be comforted and loved. I really think he's on drugs or mentally ill or both. I alternate between feeling sorry for him and feeling frustrated and angry. He says he's really sick.. and I hope he is suffering!
I am enjoying winter break in spite of all that. We're having a stretch of sunny weather, and I am soaking it up as much as possible before the rain sets back in. The one thing I need to be careful of is maintaining PMA. If I'm not busy, I get bored,and that leads to brooding. I have PLENTY to do, God knows, but I like to be lazy on these days off as well. I can be lazy and GAL at the same time, but sometimes I cross the line into dark places and have to haul myself out of there. I'm better and faster at it than I used to be.
Ok, friends, that's it from me. Happy New Year if I'm not on before then. Be well.
