I apologize if I sent the wrong message. I am not blaming her and am not mad at her. I was just venting my frustration at the situation. In our talk the other night, I validated how I pushed her to her state of doneness and I apologized to her for not seeing how lonely she was and the pain she was in. I own my part in this 100% and I carry severe personal regret because of it.
I understand her inability to not work on it, she is exhausted, in pain and scared that if she were to give it another go that it would be too much for her. My frustration in "her inability" (poor choice of words) is that she reached this state because of me. As you said, she is unable to do more because she tried for so long and I didn't see it. I am most frustrated at me because I blew it.
The other night, I told her that I have learned so much through this and that probably my biggest regret was not having done what I am doing now two years ago because it would have changed things. She agreed with me which really brought it home for me how bad I messed this up.
