i have done a whole lot of crying, but i have also accomplished a whole lot... xmas trees down floors scrubbed presents put away
please let me know if this is a good idea...or bad. just need some positive reinforcement because everything i need to do goes AGAINST what i want to do...
this is so small but it is a start...
no contact is back to normal...as normal as it can possibly be.
the talk yesterday made me feel more...both good and bad. but ok.
i finally was able to get an appointment for the family counceling that has been suggested by her pediatrician and school...
i made sure to pick one that is pro family and pro marriage...i want to make sure that she knows some of what is happening is not always a bad thing...that it is worth it to keep trying...how much you can learn from your mistakes.espcially to help her with school, her anxiety and anger...this isnt her fault! she is a child and doesnt know what is going on or how to cope with it correctly.
my h said b4 that he would go...i still hope so. it may be good for all of us.
for the next few days, i plan on getting my house back to what it should be
it is a mess...literally. the physical part of it seems to be helping me and it is keeping me quite busy.
i want it to be warm and welcoming again...gonna take some hard work...it feels empty to me right now.
any thoughts or suggestions would be great. i am finding i am in a fragile state...shocked...whatever. just need to keep busy.
me 39 h 38 kids 9 and 6 h left 8/9/09 loving and devoted wife and mother still going...10 months later...
