Start of the end..

[iwantittowork]

Well,

I made it through Christmas better than I thought I would. Managed my emotions and had fun with d8 for the time she was with me.

D8 was amazing this weekend, and couldn't believe how 'many' Christmas' she had in one year! I have to smile at how well she handles things so far.

I took her to the Nutcracker ballet for one of her presents, and I can't tell you how much it means to me to just watch the wide open eyes, and expressions of awe and mystery she gets when she is watching the show. She sits nearly motionless the whole time, just taking in the whole spectacle, and I can't describe it in words to sit and watch her like that! Truly amazing!

I did catch myself wondering if STBXW was sad at all this weekend that d8 was not around. Several times. I tried to shoo those thoughts away as best I could when they came by.

I still had times when I thought back to Christmas' past, and I missed them: STBXW, SSon's, and d8 and our dog. I'll make new memories now, and keep those old memories for myself now..

I don't know what the road ahead has for me, but I'll manage the flat tires, and maybe break the speed limit when no one is watching once in a while...

I also realized that I broke proper etiquette by not properly opening the bar at the beginning of my StBD thread, so bar is now open!

I just mixed up a Silver Patron. Blue Curacao margarita on the rocks with salt for myself.

Anyone need to quench there thirst, step right up!