I know!!! It wasn't that, he was a really nice guy, but there was really no spark. I don't know if that is a requirement, but I would think it is.

Part of me does feel guilty. I did not feel like I was cheating per se, and I don't think the feeling had much to do with the Stupid German. I think it was my own guilt because I know right now I still cannot be in a relationship. I am not ready. And this guy was definitely looking for a little more of an emotional attachment.

I kept thinking that I will not do the same thing to this guy that the Stupid German did to me...not the affair but leaving a lot of unanswered questions.

Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..