Flushing the toxins from my life

[Gnosis]

I am retaining a lawyer this afternoon, and filing for D with the intentions of gaining full-custody of S7,

Do what is best for yourself and your son.

I'm very nervous about the whole thing, as I have only had a week to adjust my mindset from trying everything to save this marriage, to terminating it as quickly as possible so that I can move on with my life.

We're more or less on the same time-line for the mindset change. The only difference is that I retained legal counsel from the day the bomb dropped and have taken the time to prepare myself legally. It's going to take time to adjust so take the time to mourn your loss. Don't fight the anger but find a way to channel it into something constructive... like exercise.

I know that D will not stop the pain, but it will allow my mind to accept WHAT IS, and allow closure to follow.

Glad you realize it. You're doing what you need to do.

I have no clue what W's reaction will be when she receives the papers. She does not have any financial resources to hire a lawyer,

Not your problem. She shoulda thunk about it before spreading her legs for anutha.

but I expect that she will resist giving up 1/2 custody despite the fact that she doesn't have any means to support our son, and the fact that she knows in her heart that the best things for S7 would be to live full-time with me.

Sorry to burst your bubble here CC, but the courts are mostly on the woman's side of D. Don't be surprised if you're ordered to pay Child Support. And since you're on the market to retain a lawyer MAKE SURE that the one you hire is BIG on men's rights. Those guys have a bug up their a$$es and will fight FOR you in any way possible.

I know how bad this is going to hurt W, both mentally and financially. It will be devastating to her.

Again, this is not your problem. Her actions have brought this upon her.

It pains me GREATLY to know this, as I love this woman like no other partner I've ever had. But I'm not the one hurting her...these are merely the consequences of the decisions that she has made in her life, and it's finally time for her to face these consequences.

Yup, consequences. It's your duty now to make sure that you get the best deal for your son and yourself. It's time to look out for Numero Uno and Numbero Uno Jr.

You can't afford to waste anymore emotions on her now.

Please pray for me, my precious son and even my W as we embark on this new chapter of our lives.

Will do.