This entire thread was powerful. Very powerful. Reading the words and responses was so very helpful for myself as well. I too can relate to many of the feelings, worries, concerns, etc. It's scary, the uncertainty is hard, the pain you feel is awful, wondering if you'll ever truly be happy, wondering where things went wrong, there are so many things that go through my mind. In my head I know what I need to do, but my heart pulls me in a different direction. Just wanted to say that I'm appreciative of this board.
