The day I truly felt like I didn't care about the outcome with my H was honestly one of the best days of my life. Like you, I finally grew tired of the BS, the games, the lies, the manipulation and the cruelty.
There were many events leading up to "my day" but on that particular day nothing happened other than feeling "it".
Sometimes I wish I knew why the feelings of just not being concerned about it anymore came to me but they did. I finally felt in control of me and my own life as ME.
I almost felt as if I wanted nothing more than my H to be part of my past and I was finally ready to have MY future.
It took me a long time to get to that point but I wouldn't change that day for all the money in the world.
