Hi guys! I hope you are ok, better than ok and enjoyed Christmas. I am still on leave which is great but my lower back has been kililng me the last few days which frustrated me a bit with the contsant pain reminding me I am not 20 anymore...
Things at home were...ok. No intimacy -John havent received the package yet- some tender gestures now and then and not any discussion worth mentioning. We actually havent discussed any R isuues except when I told him that if I catch him lying, it will be the last time he does and that I think we have an issue with sex, he nodded and I told him this book I am reading by Jannis Spring, After the Affair says it's common and has a chapter on it.
On Christmas day he left the phone visible the whoel time and left here at home even when he went out a couple of times to buy some stuff. He told me he didnt contact her nor did she. I am mentioning Christmas day because it is her nameday and we call people for wishes etc.
My friends that came over for lunch said he is more INTO us/me/family/home/kids they have seen him for years. I can see that also. But I can also see, he is not...100% relaxed. I think he is still trying to avoid me finding out stuff. I dont know.
We havent managed to go out on our own. We were with the kids and family and freinds the whole time. I need to arrange something because I need to have some fun as well. Some adult time.
Not much else to add, I will if I will remember anything else. For the time being I am cleaning the house and trying to figure out what presents to buy for my folks. xxx K
