here we go again

[Jstar]

yep i have both books. oh he texted around 7 and was like can i come over. i replied with it's ur choice, i gave u that option in my previous msg, he like i don't know what it means, i'm like freaking unbelievable.

i explain it somewhat again, he shows up unnounced, all we did was argue. had the gaul to say come over to his mothers so d2 can get her presents. i said no way, after this woman has neglected my kid, accused me of killing one baby and this one as well. how stupid can you be.

i messed up royally. i did not act as if, did R talks, told him i could wait no more, he wasn't that bad, he was lets go slow, i say what's your plan, no answer, let me do things for you, i messed it up, sabotaged it all myself.

in past he would keep everything loose and go with no contact for a few days then call up and say ok i'm coming over in an hr and i can't live like that. to me its torture,.

i don't even want to type what we said to each other. it was a very short visit, like maybe 15 minutes.

i've gotta figure out what i'm gonna do now.

so true that after all hard work of being dark, come out and mess it all up.