Any tips to deal with Jealousy on my part

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Well I honestly do not think there is OM (I hope). I think she just got into MLC or just got bored with marriage after kid left. We both took each other for granted and were simply playing the game of being an old married couple doing our own thing. I was happy with that, I guess she wasnt.

I guess she looked at me and wondered if she wanted to grow old with this grumpy old guy or not.

Our jobs make it hard to spent time together as well. She just woke up one morning and told me that she no longer loved me (and hasnt for years) and wanted a divorce. Im still in shock and pain even after almost a month now.

Only suspicion I have is that her divorce thing happen to coincide with her password protecting her laptop. She recently discovered facebook and has all her old high school boy / girlfriends on there from 27 years ago. I thought that was odd. She spends a lot of time whispering on her cellphone in her seperate bedroom.

We recently had an argument about facebook and she then deleted both me and my Son off her facebook friends/family list. She now only has people on there that she went to school with 27 years ago. This seems kind of creepy too me. I can understand taking me off but my Son?? Told her "How can lost friends from 27 years ago who barely know you now be more important than your family of 20+ years?". I just don't get that.

For the record, I don't really think I have an anger issue. I originally came here to vent since I did not want to do it on another forum I use for DBing and Healing etc. But Im just not sure of myself if I find there is an OM. How will I react? Dunno. Was looking for insight from people who had to deal with their own jealousy and how they difussed it.