now if he has his head / heart in right place, again my expectations, after i have told him that what he has been saying about wanting marraige, loving me, not wanting a divorce, if you don't show up, what you were say was just bullcrap.
will he look at it from my perspective, ah NO!
to me it's like oh jstar will always be there, i can still live my life for how long i want, oh it' snot on my terms, i'm gonna blow her and kids off.
boy that tells me how much i have faith in him. i am hopeful that he will show up, but doubtful.
he could level with me wheni sent the msgs or later on tonight, jstar lets take it slow, i'll come over to talk to you about it, figure things out, will he NO! that would be what an adult would do, express feelings either way of where the heck your head/heart is or not is.
hmm i'm logical, he's not.
Me 39 H 30 d 18 previous marriage d 2.5 with H s 4.5months with H Seperation Nov09 july i'm dim to dark - set internal deadline
