Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[newmama]

I changed my plan a little...baby was too fussy so I couldn't take the time to get ready and all dressed up. But he is going to his mom's and I did tell him I had a lot to do so I didn't go.

Good News: he said "you're doing a good job cleaning lately."
he asked about my family wanted to know how everything went.

Bad news: he took a Victoria's Secret catalog with him. (he always gets the mail and we get one of those every other day it seems, but it often ends up in the recycling. I saw it was hiding under a cigar catalog that he took with him)

He has plans New Years...said he just wasn't sure what day he had off before, that was why he hadn't made plans (he volunteered this).

He asked me what I was doing. I know I'll get a 2x4 but I was honest and said I'd be staying in since our baby was too young to take to my friend's house.

I am going to schedule a session one last time with my DB coach. Do I really want a divorce? Am I prepared for real?